The Belly: 7 weeks 0 days & Living a Lie.

So...today we are officially 7 weeks pregnant! Whoohooo! This is the belly. I had to crop out the huge boobs and the pubic region but I think you get the overall picture. lol I have a stomach. I've never had one. This is allllll new to me. See those pronounced stretch-marks?? *faints* I'm not showing thru my shirts but I am no longer able to button my work pants all the way.

 

I will see the OB on next Friday, my birthday and I've decided to tell my mom & our families on that day. I was going to wait until after the NT scan & genetic testing but I must admit....keeping this secret makes me sad at times. It's weird but it does make me feel...sad and borderline depressed! I mean.....let me explain. I'm tired. I'm almost always sleepy...my shirts don't really fit the way they used to, I don't have the energy I used to, I'm sure I put on a few pounds and I feel like I'm living a lie. A BIG one. Something I'm not good at. So, because of this I've turned down invitations to "meet up" with friends, stayed away from my family and I've just been in the house with my wife and Baby C. When I have met up with friends or been around my family I'm praying the whole time they don't notice or say anything about how I "look." I guess I'm just super paranoid. *shrugs* Keeping secrets will do that to you. lol

 

I feel fragile. I feel vulnerable. BUT I also feel so very protective over this baby. I feel like I should be getting as much rest as possible and making sure I take it easy during these next few weeks. I wanted to wait until I knew everything is okay before telling people but I've just accepted the fact that things can change during pregnancy at ANY moment AND during ANY trimester. Not telling people won't keep bad things away and telling them won't bring bad things to be. Period.

So, I decided that I will be comfortable telling family on my birthday, 11-22. My wife has respected my decision not to tell folks until I'm ready. Tho I'm sure she's bursting out the seams to tell the world! lol Thanks Baby :-) We won't post on FB until 12 weeks so if you're my FB friend please don't mention it. Thanks!

 

I was telling my wife that I admire women who can yell, "I'M PREGNANT" from the hilltops the moment they get their BFP! As soon as those two-pink lines appear they are making phone calls and telling the world! I really admire that fearlessness! They don't wait for BETA results (most don't know what a BETA test is..), they don't wait for the first doctors appointment or first ultrasound, they don't wait to hear the heartbeat.........they just announce!!! Damn THAT'S Gangsta!!!

 

Here I am at 7 weeks and my only real symptom's are sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy & sore boobs. I do continue to have moments of nausea and sickness but it's bearable. I haven't experienced bad morning sickness and I'm thankful. I mean, I did pray so hard to not have it or at least not as bad.  I know it's still early but I'm thankful to have made it to this point without it. I've had it relatively easy so far during this pregnancy and I'm really excited and nervous about my first OB appointment.

 

I'm craving all salty, spicy, starchy foods! Hot sauce on chips, loaded baked potatoes, jalapenos, breads etc! I'm not really feeling sweets these days. Oh, we did the baking soda gender test and the fizzy results were boy. lol The Chinese gender thingy also said "boy"...We will see in a few weeks how accurate they both are. lol That's all for now.........Have a great weekend everyone!

 

Meditation

Everything will be alright.

Pray more and worry not.

The baby is fine.......enjoy your journey.