31 weeks! Letter to Baby N + Babyshower

My heart explodes with Love

Tomorrow I will officially be 31 weeks! Whooohoooooo! I honestly cannot believe we only have 64 days plus or minus until we welcome our baby boy. It's still surreal.

I went in for my 30 week appointment last week and everything looks great. Baby Boy's heartbeat was strong, my weight gain has slowed down {Thank GOD} and I passed my glucose test. My swelling has also decreased and I think it's because I've started drinking a lot more water. Next up I have been advised to get the whooping cough vaccine (Tdap) sometime between now and 36 weeks.

Our Baby shower is THIS Sunday!!! Holy crap! I'm so excited. I'm also thankful we decided to have it at 31 weeks because as the weeks progress I don't know if I will feel like being bothered with it all. Don't get me wrong...I'm thankful as ever BUT the thought of having to actually get dressed and put on real clothes and look presentable and be chipper and entertain folks....overwhelms me a bit. So at 31 weeks I'm still good with it all....anything further, Ummmmm not so much. lol

I will post pics and share that special day with my blogger family so be ready for a pic heavy post! :-)

Dear Son,

Well kiddo...we are almost at the end of our journey together. I tear up just writing that. No...I cry. My biggest sacrifice was giving you life. It's the most unselfish thing I've ever done and I thank you. Having you inside my body has taught me so much. I now know how to be and accept vulnerability, being fragile and being humble. You are truly a miracle. All I want to do is keep you safe. Inside of me you are protected from the world. But I know I will have to eventually expose you to life outside of the womb and sometimes that scares me.
I love you so much. I'm proud of myself and I pray you are proud of your MaMa as well. I did it Baby boy! I did something everyone thought I wouldn't....I made the decision to give you life. I knew it was YOU all along! I felt it from the moment you were conceived. My Son. My Baby Boy. I waited 36 years to carry & birth a baby...now I know it was 36 years of prepping my heart and mind to birth you. I hope you love your new family. You have a wonderful Mommy and Big Sister waiting for you here. We love you so much! We prayed and God sent you down from the clouds just to complete our little family. You are so wanted and so loved by so many people. Take all the time you need to cook because your Mama is going to cry a lot and be a little sad once you are no longer in her belly. I will be okay though.
We have about 2 months left of our special journey and I pray over you every day that we both come home from the hospital healthy. I hope you're ready for your birthday! I love you I love you I love you........I cry when I think of you being disconnected from the life-line we now share. You will be our Baby Boy....YOU are the beautiful 4th soul who will complete our set. Our Family created by Love.

Until we meet face to face,
MaMa

When things Change.....Plus Glucose test and Such!

I went for my much dreaded glucose test on April 12th. I had so much anxiety over keeping the liquid down. As I was registered, the lab tech handed me the bottle of liquid. I went straight to panic mode! Me: "Wait. Ummm Miss, can I have the orange flavor?" {EVERYONE told me this was the best flavor to stomach}....

Her: "We don't have that one here."

Me: *Look of Horror*

 

So...I had to suck it up, twist the cap...and down the fruit punch flavored drink. I totally expected the absolute worst! BUT......It was actually good! LOL! I was thirsty so that made it even better!

Me: "Oh okay this is GOOD!"

Lab Tech: "See don't judge a book by its cover!" lol

In the end...I waited the required hour and then got the blood draw. I received my results today and I passed with a wonderful score of 114!!!!! Thank God!

 

  

 

I've reached another milestone, 28 weeks! Well....I'm officially 28 weeks 5 days to be exact. Here is my bare belly. Thank you Lord! It's more rounded, solid and hard now. Still no stretch-marks. Yayyyy! {other than the ones I already had from losing weight}

I can remember posting about how "great" I was feeling and how sometimes I "forgot" that I was pregnant. Well, things have changed. Totally. I have learned to accept each new day for what it brings. I have my good days and then I have my not so good days. And that's okay. I know I've gained a ton of weight and groaning while doing anything that involves me moving has become common place. And that's okay. Things change and as my pregnancy progresses & I just have to accept that and deal. I keep everything in perspective and that helps me to get through. Oh, I can now see the baby moving around in my belly...totally weird and cool! He's so active. My wife said he's way more active in the womb than Baby C was. Keep on movin' son..it's gives your Mama peace & comfort! :-)

 

We have cleaned out the house (nesting times a million)...donated all unused & unwanted items, had our bathroom renovated, rearranged our bedroom, will have brand new windows installed in the next 3 weeks and completed our baby shower registry! Wheeew! These two mommies have been focused! The shower is set for May 4th, 2014.

 

That's all for now. Thanks for all the encouragement, advice, prayers, love & light sent during my journey. You all have NO idea how much it means to me. Congrats on all the BFP's for March and April! I'm so happy for you ladies. It's a blessing.

 

 

Mama C~

 

Whoa. 3rd TRIMESTER!!! Now I know.....

Days LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!


Today I officially entered the 3rd trimester. So thankful beyond words. So far, this has truly been the most humbling, emotional, sacrificial & rewarding journey I've ever experienced. I went from a self-sufficient, physical/strong, energetic woman.....to a woman who can't even put on shoes without groaning. A woman who can't lift more than 30lbs. A woman who is almost always out of breath and tired. I depend on my wife a lot these days and I honestly don't think I could have done this without her by my side.

I've learned so much about myself these past few months. I learned how to totally surrender control over life. While I'm still a work in progress in that area...getting pregnant & staying pregnant has taught me just how not in control we really are.

I have a human being living in my body. One who moves constantly and makes his presence known giving me comfort and peace. At this time, I have him all to myself. We share special moments that I don't have to share with anyone, including my wife. The thought of him being inside me and having him with me at all times during this precious journey brings me to tears every time I think about it.

I mean, I never actually thought I would go through with it. But I did...and there is no greater joy than growing a baby. I'm the only one who knows his every move right now. I'm the only one who knows when he has the hiccups. I'm the only one who knows when he doesn't like me in certain positions. ME! Right now it's just him & I and I will forever cherish these intimate precious moments. I can be selfish with him right now. I can play with him in my belly. I can talk to him. I know when I drink something cold he will respond. I can just love up on him from the inside and he is connected to my body and soul for the next 91 days, give or take. I know I will be glad to meet him & share him with my wife, his sister and the rest of the world....but truth be told, I'm cherishing these last few days & I will be sad when it's all over.

Now I know what my wife was talking about. Now it all makes sense. When she carried our daughter, they too shared these moments, just the two of them. She told me about how precious this time was for her and Baby C but I could never really understand what she meant until I traveled this road for myself. She always wanted me to carry. She would always say, " I just really want you to experience it all." Well, now I know and there are no words to describe just how thankful I am for her encouraging me to carry our 2nd child. Now I know. Now I know..........Thank you Sweetpea.

I'm scheduled to have my glucose test in the next week. Please send me positive energy, prayers & light that I pass with flying colors! Still praying for those BFP's for you ladies still waiting and congrats to all who have received theirs already!!