Thursday, April 3, 2014

Whoa. 3rd TRIMESTER!!! Now I know.....



Days LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!


Today I officially entered the 3rd trimester. So thankful beyond words. So far, this has truly been the most humbling, emotional, sacrificial & rewarding journey I've ever experienced. I went from a self-sufficient, physical/strong, energetic woman.....to a woman who can't even put on shoes without groaning. A woman who can't lift more than 30lbs. A woman who is almost always out of breath and tired. I depend on my wife a lot these days and I honestly don't think I could have done this without her by my side.

I've learned so much about myself these past few months. I learned how to totally surrender control over life. While I'm still a work in progress in that area...getting pregnant & staying pregnant has taught me just how not in control we really are.

I have a human being living in my body. One who moves constantly and makes his presence known giving me comfort and peace. At this time, I have him all to myself. We share special moments that I don't have to share with anyone, including my wife. The thought of him being inside me and having him with me at all times during this precious journey brings me to tears every time I think about it.

I mean, I never actually thought I would go through with it. But I did...and there is no greater joy than growing a baby. I'm the only one who knows his every move right now. I'm the only one who knows when he has the hiccups. I'm the only one who knows when he doesn't like me in certain positions. ME! Right now it's just him & I and I will forever cherish these intimate precious moments. I can be selfish with him right now. I can play with him in my belly. I can talk to him. I know when I drink something cold he will respond. I can just love up on him from the inside and he is connected to my body and soul for the next 91 days, give or take. I know I will be glad to meet him & share him with my wife, his sister and the rest of the world....but truth be told, I'm cherishing these last few days & I will be sad when it's all over.

Now I know what my wife was talking about. Now it all makes sense. When she carried our daughter, they too shared these moments, just the two of them. She told me about how precious this time was for her and Baby C but I could never really understand what she meant until I traveled this road for myself. She always wanted me to carry. She would always say, " I just really want you to experience it all." Well, now I know and there are no words to describe just how thankful I am for her encouraging me to carry our 2nd child. Now I know. Now I know..........Thank you Sweetpea.

I'm scheduled to have my glucose test in the next week. Please send me positive energy, prayers & light that I pass with flying colors! Still praying for those BFP's for you ladies still waiting and congrats to all who have received theirs already!!

 

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  1. That was beautifully written!

    As I prepare for the last 30 days of my precious little baby growing inside of me, I'm getting more and more sentimental about it.
    I love having her right there with me at all times, reacting to things I do/eat/drink and kicking me when I sing ;-)

    After years of hating my flabby belly, it's filling in nicely, looking like one of those baby bumps I have always been envious about. Soon it will be empty...

    I can't wait to hold our daughter in my arms, but I will definitely miss carrying her inside of me.

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    1. Thank you so much Mummy M.
      You're almost at the finish line :-) I will say that now that we have more order & organization around our home I do feel I can relax. I was kinda stressed thinking we wouldn't get everything done in terms of cleaning and nesting....but with the help of a hired housekeeper...we are all set in those areas. There was just not enough time in the day and I get tired too easy...so we looked at hiring someone as an "investment." lol
      Now just waiting for our baby shower! I told my wife, "Now I feel like I can kick back and really enjoy the remainder of this pregnancy." It's such a great feeling.
      I wish you a healthy, safe and memorable delivery! (hugs)

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