Update: 8 Weeks 5 Days

Sprout at 8 weeks 1 Day

I'm a little delayed with updating but SO much has happened since my last post. Soooo much!

 

1. I was called for an interview (11/15) and it went really well. BUT....also in the same week my boss announced he is leaving so that means a BIG promotion for me with an increase in pay. Once I weighed all the pros & cons {and after researching the government agency I interviewed for} I came to the conclusion that it's in my best interest all around to stay put. At least for now. Yes, the new job would offer more money but my current job offers ALL the other perks of being a loyal employee for the past 7 years. Annnnd no worries about fmla, sick leave, vacation time, slacking because I'm preggers, stability and most importantly I know the culture here. I know the folks I work with and I know my job is safe. Nothing like the devil you know, huh? lol With the change in leadership I'm now second in command. I won't reveal the line of work I'm in because it will surely uncover my identity but second in command is a great place to be at this stage of my life and my career. I look at it as a blessing.

 

Soooooooooo.....on to the baby stuff!

 

I had my 1st OB appointment on my birthday, 11/22! I was officially 8 weeks 1 day. I was so nervous. I guess because the last time we actually saw the baby was during the 5 week 6 day ultrasound. I just prayed everything would be okay. Meaning there was still a heartbeat, since the last time we only saw it we didn't get to hear it since it was so early. The baby measured 8 weeks 3 days, 2 days ahead, and had a strong heartbeat. Yay!! Also the highlight of the visit was having an abdominal ultrasound and not an internal vaginal one. Double Yayyyyy! Now for the low-lights of that visit. I had to get a pelvic exam. Yes, with the speculum. Ugh! It was so painful. I thought I was bleeding! It felt like she was pushing a razor blade inside me. I'm so thankful I don't have to go thru that anytime soon. Prayerfully. My blood pressure was really high but I already knew it would be. I'm going to ask them if they can start taking my pressure at the end of my visit instead of as soon as I come in. I will continue to have high readings if they keep doing it first. I always have high readings during my OB/GYN appointments! They are a source of anxiety for me. Have any of you experienced this? Crazy thing is my pressure is always normal at my primary care and foot doctors offices. lol

 

She gave me a bunch of paperwork and answered all my questions. She also left my due date as July 03, 2014. I contacted the genetics department and I'm scheduled for the MaterniT21 test on December 13th. I will be 11 weeks 1 day. I'm not sure if I'm going to have the NT scan. I was thinking of having it done after I get the results of my genetics test JUST for the extra peek at the baby. But again, I'm not sure. All these appointments are kinda overwhelming so I'm just gonna take it one step at a time. I actually didn't realize how overwhelming it all was until this appointment. So many test, appointments, bloodwork etc! I just told myself I'm not focusing on 40 weeks. It's too much for me right now. I will only focus on day by day...week by week. That will keep me sane. So right now my eyes are on 13 weeks. That's my goal for right now. Then after that I will re-shift my focus.

 

I'm still feeling realllly good! Still no morning/evening sickness. I'm still feeling pretty tired but I feel like it's getting better. The only new thing I'm experiencing is hip pain when I'm sleeping. I have to constantly rotate positions at night because my hips hurt! I will be 9 weeks on Thursday so my wife advised me to go grab the body pillow from the basement. I'm so glad she's already gone thru this process!

 

We have told our families and most of our friends. Most folks didn't believe me/us. I still think they all assume I'm joking. Lol! They never thought I would actually go thru with it. Once I start showing I think it will become real to them. I'm still getting the, "I'm still in shock about your pregnancy and I don't believe you!" text messages! Lmao!

 

Please pray that my genetics testing comes back fine, my pregnancy continues to be uneventful & boring & that I continue to remain positive and healthy.

 

Meditation

 

Don't worry, Pray.

The Baby is fine. And so are you.

Enjoy the journey.

The Belly: 7 weeks 0 days & Living a Lie.

So...today we are officially 7 weeks pregnant! Whoohooo! This is the belly. I had to crop out the huge boobs and the pubic region but I think you get the overall picture. lol I have a stomach. I've never had one. This is allllll new to me. See those pronounced stretch-marks?? *faints* I'm not showing thru my shirts but I am no longer able to button my work pants all the way.

 

I will see the OB on next Friday, my birthday and I've decided to tell my mom & our families on that day. I was going to wait until after the NT scan & genetic testing but I must admit....keeping this secret makes me sad at times. It's weird but it does make me feel...sad and borderline depressed! I mean.....let me explain. I'm tired. I'm almost always sleepy...my shirts don't really fit the way they used to, I don't have the energy I used to, I'm sure I put on a few pounds and I feel like I'm living a lie. A BIG one. Something I'm not good at. So, because of this I've turned down invitations to "meet up" with friends, stayed away from my family and I've just been in the house with my wife and Baby C. When I have met up with friends or been around my family I'm praying the whole time they don't notice or say anything about how I "look." I guess I'm just super paranoid. *shrugs* Keeping secrets will do that to you. lol

 

I feel fragile. I feel vulnerable. BUT I also feel so very protective over this baby. I feel like I should be getting as much rest as possible and making sure I take it easy during these next few weeks. I wanted to wait until I knew everything is okay before telling people but I've just accepted the fact that things can change during pregnancy at ANY moment AND during ANY trimester. Not telling people won't keep bad things away and telling them won't bring bad things to be. Period.

So, I decided that I will be comfortable telling family on my birthday, 11-22. My wife has respected my decision not to tell folks until I'm ready. Tho I'm sure she's bursting out the seams to tell the world! lol Thanks Baby :-) We won't post on FB until 12 weeks so if you're my FB friend please don't mention it. Thanks!

 

I was telling my wife that I admire women who can yell, "I'M PREGNANT" from the hilltops the moment they get their BFP! As soon as those two-pink lines appear they are making phone calls and telling the world! I really admire that fearlessness! They don't wait for BETA results (most don't know what a BETA test is..), they don't wait for the first doctors appointment or first ultrasound, they don't wait to hear the heartbeat.........they just announce!!! Damn THAT'S Gangsta!!!

 

Here I am at 7 weeks and my only real symptom's are sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy & sore boobs. I do continue to have moments of nausea and sickness but it's bearable. I haven't experienced bad morning sickness and I'm thankful. I mean, I did pray so hard to not have it or at least not as bad.  I know it's still early but I'm thankful to have made it to this point without it. I've had it relatively easy so far during this pregnancy and I'm really excited and nervous about my first OB appointment.

 

I'm craving all salty, spicy, starchy foods! Hot sauce on chips, loaded baked potatoes, jalapenos, breads etc! I'm not really feeling sweets these days. Oh, we did the baking soda gender test and the fizzy results were boy. lol The Chinese gender thingy also said "boy"...We will see in a few weeks how accurate they both are. lol That's all for now.........Have a great weekend everyone!

 

Meditation

Everything will be alright.

Pray more and worry not.

The baby is fine.......enjoy your journey.

Milestones: 5 Weeks 6 Days

Today we went in for my weekly ultrasound. Exactly 5 weeks 6 days. The Doctor that did my vag/ultrasound was so rough. Ugh! Damn her! Anyway....we saw the fetal pole and also the little flicker of the heartbeat. Thank God. Although we didn't get to hear the heartbeat I was okay with it because I know it's still early. My wife was like, "I see it!" I had to hold still and was instructed not to breathe. lol

 

Sprout has grown A LOT since my first ultrasound. The next time we will see him/her will be at my first OB appointment which is November 22nd. My 37th Birthday.Yippee! We are both really excited about this appointment JUST to see the look on our OB's face when she walks into the exam room and it's ME hopping on the table. lol We love her.

 

So far I'm still feeling really great. No food aversions. No morning sickness and no real feelings of being pregnant. The only thing I'm experiencing is moments of nausea and very tender boobs, Oh and I'm so damn sleeeeeepy after I eat my lunch and in the evenings. So far so good and I'm not complaining one bit. I know it may hit me at any moment and it usually doesn't set in until after 6 weeks but I'm just appreciating each day that I escape morning/Evening/All day sickness. I'm also doing well with the pro.gesterone suppositories. Other than being an extra step in my night-time routine....its not as bad as I thought it would be.

 

My boobs are getting fuller and my shirts are starting to fit kinda awkward. I mean, I'm not showing yet but I can tell my stomach is expanding because I can see the imprint of my boxers elastic line around my stomach. Yes, I wear boxers. And UGHHH to them fitting the way they do these days. lol This journey is indeed going to be special. lol

 

 

Meditations

6 weeks 0 days tomorrow!

Surrender this pregnancy....God is in Control.

No amount of worry will change the outcome BUT prayer can. Focus on that.

Embrace & celebrate each day you're pregnant.